Wednesday, December 14, 2011

ಕಡಲು ಕರೆದಂತೆ ದಡವನು ಭೇಟಿಗೆ



ಕಡಲು ಕರೆದಂತೆ ದಡವನು ಭೇಟಿಗೆ

ಕೈ ಬೀಸಿ ಕರೆದಿತ್ತು ನನ್ನ,
ಸಾಗರದ ದಂಡೆಯ ಬಿಸಿ ಉಸುಕು.
ಬರೆದೆ ಅದರಲಿ ನನ್ನ ಪಾಪಗಳನು;
ಕ್ಷಮಿಸಲೆಂದೇ ಬಂದಿತು ಕಡಲಲೆಯ ಮುಸುಕು.

ನನ್ನೊಳಗಿನ ಸಾವಿರಾರು ಗುಟ್ಟು
ಕಡಲಡಿಗೆ ಮಾತ್ರ ಗೊತ್ತು.
ನಿನ್ನೊಂದಿಗೆ ಅಂತರಾಳದ ಮಾತು ಹಂಚದಿದ್ದರೆ
ಹೋಗುತಿತ್ತು ಅಂತರಾತ್ಮ ಸುಟ್ಟು - ಸತ್ತು.

ನನ್ನೊಳಗಿನ ದುರಾಚಾರಿಯ ಸಾವಿಗಾಗಿ ಬರುವೆನಾ ಅಡಿಗಡಿಗೆ
ನಿನ್ನ ಅಲೆಗಳು ಕರೆಯುತಿರಲಿ ದಡವನು ಹೀಗೆಯೇ ಭೇಟಿಗೆ
(Written Sep 21st 2011, Karthik Bharadwaj)

The idea of writing this came to me while coming back from the beaches of Surathkal. I spent my time alone for a while during one evening taking pictures with DSLR during my solo trip to Udupi, Kundapura, Karkala and places around, a few months back.
I found this today scribbled in one of my notebooks. This verse was written back then but I always felt it rather incomplete to post it.

Theme of the verse: Nature is the next closest thing to one's own soul.

I keep doing a lot of mistakes in my life. Some are ought to be forgiven, not by others, but myself. The hardest part is to forgive oneself and to move on. That is when I get close to something beyond and seek for god/nature in helping us forgive ourselves, trying to kill the "inner-cruel-me" and find peace with self and make sure at every step that consciousness overtakes the unruly me. But, at the end I don't promise that its going to be my last mistake as I come to you again and again.

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Karthik